"I often wonder if I'll ever reach my full potenial. Or is it too late? Then I remember, the mind is infinate and I never will because I will forever be learning. Then the question arises: Will I ever be as intilligent and great as I yern to be? The answer? No. It is as simple as the first question.
One does not ever stop needing or wanting.
Why do people become ashamed of the truth of the past? It happened. It is a matter of cause and effect. It made you into your present self. And you should always be happy with your present self. The only time you should ever be asshamed of your past is when you are dead because when you are dead, you cannot change your future.
Still have not moved. Perhaps this weekend.
1:25 pm
I just reread (skimmed) everything I wrote in here. It is hilarious for I know that when I started this journal, I thought I was very intelligent and on top of the world. One thing is sure, I was not. I wonder what I will think of this entry in four years?"
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The above, word for word, letter for letter, misspelling for misspelling, was an entry I wrote in my physical journal not long after I met you. You had already touched me deep. I didn't make another entry until last Sunday.
I'm sorry that it seems like all I've been doing lately is complaining. I want to blame it on the hormones and the mood swings, but I don't think I can. It's just that I really want to talk with you, but when I can't think of anything to say, all I do is complain. I'm sorry.
I'm also sorry, but I seemed to have deleted the archives. It didn't delete the comments like I had thought so I deleted entries. I meant to save the ones I wrote for you, but I wasn't paying attention to what I was doing. I did manage to save them though. So they're not lost completely. I want to say I'll post them up again, but I don't think I ever will. I'm not very good about doing things like that.
You're wonderful. I hope you never tire of me saying that. Eventually I'll follow it with a real, warm kiss, but for now words will have to do. You're wonderful. Don't ever forget.